Im at a time where i thought people actually cared for me i was gastly wrong they all force their smiles on me only coming they need something for me but its ok im used to be not cared for but then the person i love truly stopped giving me the satifaction of talking to her so i did not spite when she went surfing and having fun i didnt but i started to hate and despise her because i was hospital riden while she was out partying and i was left there for dead still she didnt call my soul was wearing out and i had thought of giving up but i didnt but still she played me like a drum making me feel as a lonly thing for her amusement im tired of everyone playing with me just leave me if you wish but dont play with my emotins and leave for VACTION